Tuesday, December 30, 2008

朋友们,加油!!!

我的朋友们最近都怎么啦??!!!
个个都喊着要死!!!
很悲哀。。。

死。。。
不是一个好办法啊!!
每件事情总有它的解决方法啊!!!
Nothing Is Impossible!!!

不要因为一时的悲哀
而做了让自己感到遗憾 让身边的人伤心难过!!!

要记得。。
你们的身边有很多人都在支持你们的!!!



加油加油,我的朋友们!!!

Touch....Appreciate...Thank you...

Again and again, I changed my mind regarding to the LJMU summer programme... And yesterday I had made my final decision.... I'M GOING!!! =)

What's made me to change my decision...??? CAUSE OF MY LOVELY DAD!!!

During these last few weeks to the dateline of the application for LJMU programme (on 5th of Jan, 2009)... I still can't make myself clear whether wanna go or not... No doubt, the main reason is about $$$... As mentioned in the last blog about my DIFFICULTIES for this programme...

While I'm still thinking of this and not yet say "YES".. My dad has already started to try his hardest to get back his $$$ for me (for sure not borrow to someone else lar!!!My dad is not rich!!!)...I feel touched of this when my sis told me...really...
Since then... I know, what should I do... I was at first decided to borrow half from my dad and borrow another half from KOJADI loan (as there's no other easiest way to get financial assistance)... Then, he will not be so burdensome... But, he doesn't agree to what I decided due to the interest rate is too high...and he said he can borrow me the full amount...

Eventhough at the very beginning I knew that he is wishing me to go and able to support me... I just don't feel like wana spend his money... I know, I'm not from rich and wealthy family.. What my dad earn and save is the hardworks of himself for so many years...and now, my home can just live to be more comfortable.. I know, all these... But.. I'm sorry for not being able to handle well in expressing my feeling towards what you had done (no matter is my dad, my family, Ney)... I'm appreciate it.. and Thank You for that...

The amount that I decided to borrow from my dad... I promise him will repay back after I graduate and start working... I know, I really owned him a lots... I know, I'm luckier than another 2 elder sis... because I could get my dad's financial assistance for all the time I studied while my sis got to borrow some loans.. I know, there is still a lot lot lot of things...

What I can do now is just thank you and appreciate them... I'll study my hardest to get a better result... I'll try my best to do something to return to them in the future.. Please support me!!! =)

By the way, I know that some people might think that I'm actually from rich family..yet, I keep on saying that I got no money... Till this programme... only you all "realised" that I'm from rich family... Here, I would like to make you all clear that I'M NOT FROM RICH AND WEALTHY FAMILY!!! As I had already mentioned above... My dad work his hardest to spoon my family.. what he earn are all of his 'blood sweat money'... And that is the reason that I couldn't able to make my decision when my plan to borrow loan is spoilt and till yesterday only I made my final decision... So, Don't Ever 'Tease' Me That My Dad Is Rich!!!! Thank you for your cooperation!!!



Thank you MY DEAREST DAD!!! ;-)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

GoodBye Liverpool John Moores University

Not going to think about LJMU anymore...

1) The Kojadi Loan's interest rate is just too.....EXTREMELY HIGH!!!
7% for the 1st year of repayment
8% for the 2nd year of repayment
9% for the 3rd year of repayment and onwards!!

2) Dad's burden is heavy... Don't feel like wanna spend his money though I can repay him after I back... Just now he was asking me about this again... I guess, he would like to support me if I want to go.. But, I know that he has actually got a lot of things have to bother... Feeling like his burden is becoming heavier and heavier...

3) The exam time table released on the Monday ago, the time table is just like HELL!!! The break between the papers is just SO SHORT!!! I'm worried if I fail the papers...


Ok lar... Just stay at Malaysia lar... TRYING MY BEST TO SIT FOR THE EXTERNAL PAPER!! Hahaa...


Hopefully the dateline for the deposit payment of LJMU faster come!!! Then, I wouldn't think so much!!! kakaka... =p


Gambatte Everyone!!! ;-)

Monday, December 22, 2008

My GIFTS!!! =D

Christmas coming soon!!!!!

This time round, can't celebrate with Ney...
But... I had already get Christmas gift from him!!! kakkaaa...

Let's see....


Nice wrapping ya... Unfortunately, not wrapped by him.. =p
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Da-Dang.....!!!

Shower Gel + Perfume

Thank You Ney!!! Sweet-scent!!! I love it much much much!!! =D
But, I'm sorry for not buying anything for you (I know is AGAIN..hehe..=p)...
Thanks for the understanding ya... hehee...
You won't dare to scolding at me right... as I already tried my hardest to accompany you though I got assignments on due this week... hahahaa...





Ok... Come to the event after Christmas which is New Year 2009!!!
Again... I got another gift from Ney... hehee...

Guess... What's that the next?????
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DENG-DENG....!!!!!


It's 2009 Calendar with 12 of our photos!!! Hehee... Thanks Ney for the designing!!! =)



And framing it!!! But, can't see it clearly here..

Ney....Words from my DEEP HEART...
I really LOVE this picture very very very Much!!
Look like... Dunno how to express my feeling right now lar... Hehee...

This is the 4th Christmas and New Year since we two had became couple...
Hope that this will not be ended!!! Hehee..
Appreciate much for what You had done to/for me...!!! ;-)



Really Thanks So Much for the sweet and warm presents!!!
Love You... Muackss... :-D

Sunday, December 21, 2008

做“汤”圆记 =)

今天是冬至
又是吃汤圆的时候了
呵呵

不过 上个星期我就已经做汤圆来吃了
嘻嘻

一时的兴起
边做边拍下了做汤圆的过程
不懂得做汤圆的人可参考
哈哈

不过我做的不是“汤”圆,而是“粉”圆
呵呵。。。
(原因:我不喜欢汤的。。=P)

首先 先准备材料










制作汤圆的粉
(不懂叫什么粉。。。=P 不过你去店里问就会知道的)














白开水










这不是花生粉,而是一种由豆类磨成的粉
(不过,也可以拿花生粉)


现在 制作汤圆过程如下:










慢慢的倒入一些些白开水 (不是整杯!!)










然后 用你的手来搓它










看,已经有点变“团”型了。不过水还不够。。。










再倒入点水后 用手搓它 就会变“团”了 那就可以了
嘻嘻










现在把它搓成小粒点的汤圆
(我知道大了些。。不好意思。。呵呵。。)










然后 就煮白开水










等水“滚”了之后 就把刚才搓成小粒的汤圆放进水了煮










看到了吗 汤圆浮上来了 嘻嘻










把它捞上来 放在那个豆粉上










搅一搅后 就可以吃了咯
哈哈


制作过程很容易吧 哈哈


这个星期三 所有的assignment就会交了 那时就会轻松点了
只剩下一个小考 一个quiz 一个presentation
之后呢 再过几个星期 就是在塔尔的最后一次大考了(希望没有resit paper。。!!!)


橙子 加油加油!!!
=)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

情绪化的人!!!

不管你是为了什么事情
而影响你的心情
那是你自己的事
请你不要把你的情绪带给人

人家好好跟你说话
你却冷冷的对待
人家又没有得罪到你
你是否知道这样会影响到人
新的一天的心情全都被淹没

真搞不懂那些人是凭什么
心情好的时候 就会和你有说有笑
爽爽的时候 就会回复你
有事情的时候 就会突然间的才跟你讲话
没有利用价值的 就会随着你的心情来跟你讲话
礼貌跑到那里去了
不要把我当成若有若无的

自己身上能够发现到的
不要往别人身上揭发
掩饰了自己的缺点

快受不了这一切
我不要求多
只求快点结束吧!
不想再见!

不要问发生什么事
有些事情要自己懂得反省
自己懂得自律
不是事事都要人家讲明


请不要把你的情绪化带来!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

I want a LONG BREAK!!!

Busy... This week is really busy... Sorry for not updating my blog this week... Cause of all assignments are on due sooner and sooner...

CG assignment is on due this coming Wednesday...
- yet, all are like rubbish...

CFM assignment is on due this coming Friday...
- tomorrow morning got discussion, trying to combine all.. but I don't know I manage to make it or not...

CA assignment is on due next Monday....
- Tuesday going to discussion and combine all... but I'm worried if I can't finish it..

CS assignment is on due next Monday as well...
- Wednesday has to finish the Issue + Solution... but I feel hard to do finish my point..

All the assignments are just like a rubbish... correct or not... I don't have any idea... Just try to do base on whatever I know... The assignments are just too tough (for me)... My brain gonna empty already, My common sense also gone already... All worries come to me again and again... I'm just so tired...



I WANT A LONG BREAK!!!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

The Smiling Moon * u *

Today got something to share with you all, especially those dunno about this rare phenomenon at all or those have no chance to see the said phenomenon(including me)!!! =p

2 nights ago, my friend sms me and ask me whether my area get to see moon or not... Firstly I thought she was fooling me as it was not 15th day of lunar calendar...still, I go and see outside of the sky got anything SPECIAL about moon or not... Unfortunately, I couldn't see any moon at all because blocked by all those condominium.. Then, my friend told me that her friends told her got a rare phenomenon of moon...

On the second day, when I was waiting for the bus to arrive(to go college), I saw 2 girls were reading Sinchew Daily Newspaper and I saw the PHENOMENON!!! and the following pictures are the said rare phenomenon(surely not getting from Sinchew, but mail from my friend)....

THE SMILING MOON














1. Two shinning stars and smiling moon.














2. The stars and moon are moving/changing..?














3. Moving/Changing.......???














4. Still moving/changing..............??















5. The smiling 'face'....















6. Same, but darker...














7. Again, moving/changing...














8. Back to smiling 'face' again....


















9. AMAZING right!!!



It's beautiful right.... Sob sob... This will just be happened again after hundred or thousand years.. yet, I didn't get to see this phenomenon anymore as I'm already 22 now(impossible that I will live for so long mar...)... just too pity... But, I believed lots of people have not seen this phenomenon this time round right... so I'm not the only 'si pity'.. hahaha..

No sadness, No disappointed.... here got kind hearted person(definitely is me la...=p) is sharing this rare phenomenon to you all here by uploading these pictures!!! hahaa... Enjoy to see this smiling moon ya!!! ;-)




p/s: I'm not too sure whether the sequence of the phenomenon correct or not... If there is any mistake... please don't blame me... at least you got to see this phenomenon through here wat... =p

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I'm going back home this weekend!!! =)

Since the new sem started till now, week9, I HAD NOT YET BEEN GET BACK HOME!!! (surely my hometown, Sitiawan la)

It is super busy in this final year final sem and I got no time to go back. Maybe sometimes might got a little bit time to relax and can go back Sitiawan during weekend, but I'm those kind of always worry about this and that about something and for sure is assignments the most...

Always worry not able to finish the assignment the day before assignment due, always worry don't know how to do the assignments, always worry blar blar blar... Maybe some people might think that I put too much pressures on myself while some people might think that am I really put effort? Doesn't matter, as long as what I did is comfortable for myself. *wink =)

9 weeks I have not seen my parents and sisters(I have no brother).. Well, this weekend I'm going back Sitiawan lor~~~ hahaa.. I didn't plan to go back at first, because 1 of my assignments is on due by next friday.. Though is friday and not monday, if I go back also won't feel ease cause feel like the assignment cannot finish d.. Just dunno why I also feel like that one.. hahaa...

Accidently, the lecturer extend the submission date to 2 weeks later... So, yesterday only I changed my mind to go back Sitiawan in this weekend and went to Pudu Bus Station to buy bus ticket immediately after my assignment discussion.. Maybe I should thanks my course-rep to voice up to the lecturer on behalf of my coursemates to request for the extension of submission date? and only I can go back Sitiawan? hahahaa...

But, I still not yet tell my family about this happy news... Hahaa... I'm planning to tell them only on this thursday night or friday morning... Why? Cause I can purposely ask them first what will they cook for friday's meal mar.. then ask them to cook something nice... and when they ask me why ler... then I say I go back on friday lor!!! sure they feel happy... hahhaa...

At the same time, I wish to meet some of my friends who are at Sitiawan right now... Especially A yu!!! hahaa... Cause got some BIG news of her!! wana ba gua something of her... =p
And also, wana go to support my friend's steamboat restaurant!!! I already promised him that I will go to support him when I go back mar.. So if got time sure I go!!! plus, I am eager to eat steamboat!!! Hopefully Neyney can bring me for that... hahaa...


All the best to me, my family, my beloved, my true friends!!! ;-)

Sunday, November 30, 2008

我和“你”的星座配对=)

尼!!!
看看我们的星座配对!!!



水瓶 vs 天秤
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2008年11月30日   来源:Tom 专稿

配对评分:100 天生的一对

星座比重:52:48

解析:

瓶子和秤子都给人变化莫测、忽冷忽热的感觉,虽然原因不相同,但彼此却能产生互动,形成默契,尤其在真正交往之后的心态也与其它组合不同,会给对方很大的空间,并且双方也和谐、平顺,不会因此而疏离。你们之间是属于心灵交流式的恋情。


源自:http://astro.tom.com/school/index.html

想要知道自己与另一半的星座配对,可以游览以上的网址。=)

“倾诉”

倾诉的含义是什么

据我所了解
倾诉 是你遇到了什么不开心的
就会跟身边的人诉苦

不过 我想这个的含义要改变了
倾诉 好像跟“在他人的背后说他的坏话”的意思很相近

你跟人家倾诉
他或许会把你的诉苦转义成“你在讲他人的坏话”
间接的
他又将你的“诉苦”传达给其他人
到最后
你就成为了他们的敌人

现在的人 有各种各样
最恐怖的是 那些双面人
在你面前讲一套
在你后面作另一套
人是他 鬼也是他

或许
你是太傻了 很轻易的相信他人
所以
对他人并没存有防戒心

这个想法
恐怕要改变了
再也没有所谓真诚的人了
有什么不开心的
通通往自己的肚子里塞

不能顶的时候
或是适合的时候
把它呕出来
或是以任何方式排泄出来
(记得,不要让自己得了忧郁症!)

只能相信你自己
没有所谓的好人了
因为好人 已经是少之又少了

人性 越来越虚弱了

Saturday, November 29, 2008

我的分析

今天又看了我的星座的分析,如下。。。

天秤座终极完美分析

优雅的天平在灯红酒绿中微笑转身,顾盼神采,洒脱如同水中的鱼。他们与红酒,水晶杯,晚礼服,钢琴曲是那么的相得益彰,漫不经意的吸引着公众的眼光

几乎所有人都有这样一种印象:

天平座的人善意、可亲,爱交朋友。于是大家也由此认为天平是群居生物,必然是害怕独处,喜欢热闹的。

但,事实并不是表面看来那样简单。

的确,天平是个和平使者。在公众场合可以很好地调节气氛使之均衡。气氛热烈时,他们会沉静的压住阵脚;气氛冷凝时,他们会运用不着痕迹的轻松幽默化解坚冰。总之他们不会随波逐流去助长气氛的冷热,而是像用天平称量物品一样,加减砝码,使之维持水平状态。

而他们在做这种加减的时候,动作是优雅的,态度是和悦的,看起来漫不经心不动声色。实际上,他们是很有心计的人,尽管众口难调,也可以找到一种万全的方式来使全局和谐起来。

但是这并不是说他们喜欢主宰,只是因为他们看不得失衡,那会使他们如坐针毡。

因此,尽管慵懒的天平座讨厌麻烦,讨厌得要命,他们还是会不由自主地担负起调节的责任。也许正因如此,使得天平在公众场合从未放松过自己。性格使他们承担了不必要的责任,无可推卸。

他们不吝惜金钱,却吝惜自由的时间和安静的休闲时光。像所有风向星座一样,他们喜欢自由,喜欢像风一样谁也捉不住他。

他们喜欢自在独立的空间。就算你是他最好的朋友,也不要老和他粘在一起,你要知道他并不喜欢如此,尽管他不会直接说出来。你也得相信,你的天平座朋友也许半年也没有音信,但是只要一见面,你还是他最好的朋友。因为他就是这种交友方式,你拿他怎么办?

我懒得。。。这是天平座的口头语。他们懒得出门,懒得聚会,懒得应酬。所以他们并不是很喜欢参加。倒是宁愿呆在家里上网,看书,画画。他们自身是均衡的,一个人的均衡总比一群人的均衡来的容易。所以他们喜欢独处。

通常,天平座的人会给人一见如故的感觉,因为他们有着温婉的微笑和优雅的举止。对初次见面的人,天平座往往表现出自己最讨人喜欢的一面:善解人意,大方,诚恳,健谈。但是这种热情劲儿不会长久。冷漠何时到来取决于你与他交往的频率。你越是粘得紧,他就冷得越快。因为他们喜欢君子之交清淡如水。不是他们不喜欢同伴,而是他们和人交往更多地关注了对方的情绪,总想着照顾对方心情,不要发生冲突,所以感觉像是在工作一样,无法真正的放松。

较之对宫白羊座,天平是另一种独立的个体。白羊是一种外在的独立,内心是热的;天平则是表面看似亲和力很强,内心却是任谁也无法融入的。天平的冷静,连他们自己也觉得惊讶。我居然如此冷漠!太不可思议了。。他们审视自己的时候,感觉有点陌生。那是因为他们把内心世界掩饰得连自己都骗过了。

他们控制情绪的能力太强了。最亲近的人会感觉到,天平给人不露声色的隔离感,有时会被埋怨。。太冷静了,我都不知道你在想什么!可是他们不是故意要隐瞒什么,只是出于本能。一个连自己都骗过了的人,你还能要求他对你坦白什么?

他们不喜欢歇斯底里,不喜欢痛哭失声,不喜欢安慰别人也不怎么喜欢被安慰。因为他们懂得,谁也无法真正理解另一个人。

天平,其实是很独立的一个星座。他们在霓虹灯影里微笑,在灯火阑珊处寂寞。他们叫你懂得:孤独的最高境界是繁华。

也是蛮准的。。

得罪过的 多多谅解

Friday, November 28, 2008

October Baby

Few days ago received a mail description about month of birth... and the following description is my birth month...which is OCTOBER... hehhee....


-------October Baby-----------

1. Loves to chat.
2. Loves those who love them.
3. Loves to take things at the centre.
4. Inner and physical beauty.
5. Lies but doesn't pretend.
6. Gets angry often.
7. Treats friends importantly.
8. Brave and fearless.
9. Always making friends.
10. Easily hurt but recovers easily.
11. Daydreamer.
12. Opinionated.
13. Does not care to control emotions.
14. Unpredictable.
15. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.



After reading this description, I found that it is quite true to describe myself... hahaa.. Of course, I don't agree some of it lar.. and the rest one... you guys analyze yourself lar... hahhaa... =)

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

家乡的一首诗

还记得N星期前,收到了这样的一个手机短讯:

北京大,上海富,不如實兆遠的一顆樹, 
香港街,美國路,不比實兆遠的十字路, 
玫瑰花,牡丹花,就像實兆遠的甜木瓜, 
茨廠街,唐人街,好過去走拜四街,   
天有情,地有情,實兆遠人到哪哪都行, 
謹以此信獻給所有實兆遠人。  

不知道是来自什么人的诗
原来还能够把实兆远形容得这么美
呵呵

可是
现在的实兆远
建了很多建筑物 车道也改善得很多
改变了不少


依然
回到自己的家
还是有家乡的味道

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

人性

一些人 只是顾着自己
一些人 不会去体谅别人

一些人 只会看到别人的缺点
却 看不到自己的缺点
然后 就会抱怨这个 抱怨那个
到头来 其实自己也在做着跟那个人一样的东西
没什么两样

一些人 觉得自己做的 都是对的
他们都是从自己的角度去衡量
然而 事情并不简单

一些人 只会开口命令别人做东西
自己却没做好自己的本分
过后 还埋怨他人对他不好

一些人 用人不用本(晒人唔晒本)
从来没有考虑到他人的苦衷
还拼命堆东西填满他人的空间

一些人 就连本分都没做
有是非的时候 就会插上一脚
与你高谈阔论

一些人 不会懂得去反省自己
只会努力的找藉口为自己辩护
说他人的不对

困难的时候
人 更加显示得出他们的尾巴
他们只顾着自己的安危
他人的死活 对他而言 与他无关 就算你们交往不浅

要不然 如果你是有利用价值
就算平时与你没两句
他们也会努力的朝向你

什么
亲情 友谊 情感
什么
感恩图报 同舟共济 相亲相爱
什么
礼尚往来 来而不往 非礼也
通通都是过去式

现在式的只有
虚情假意 自私自利 贪图名利
以五十步笑百步

无谓再为他人那么卖力了
根本就没有人稀罕
利用价值完了
人家只会当你是
曾经在他生活中路过的那一位
没有人会记得你的存在

经历过了
原本一颗善良 纯洁的心
转变成一颗可怕 无情的心


人 就是这么的现实
人 就是这么的可悲


简而言之 人都是自私的


学习保护自己!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

两个人的世界就是天堂


那天晚上,她在路灯下遇到一位受伤的天使




她把他带回家,发现他只有一只翅膀




她每天细心照顾着他,他们爱上了对方




然而,天使总是忍不住看着窗外的天空,渴望在天堂飞翔的感觉



她看见了,想尽办法找寻另一只翅膀,只为了让他快乐

然而她却发现唯一的方法就是献上梦想


如果把梦想给了他,她将永远坠入没有梦的世界,

而天使,也会离她而去



最后,她终于下定决心…


这天晚上,她将亲手打造的礼物交给天使,期待看到他开心的表情



没想到,他也拿出一样礼物



这时她才惊觉,天使的另一只翅膀也不见了

Friday, November 21, 2008

The "HERO"...

Few days ago I heard from my friend that there was an accident happened in TARC(the way go into TARC's hostel from the main gate of UTAR)... My friend was actually trying to show us the video, but dunno what happen to her pendrive or maybe another friend's laptop can't get to open the said video which is saved in her pendrive.. So I go back home myself and search it from youtube..

Actually what is that big deal as you all might think accident is always happened from day to day.. I don't mean you all didn't concern about that lar.. It's just that the accident happened in TARC was the consequence of those like to act as so called "hero"...


You will know why I'm saying so after you watch the following video...




The Myvi might be false also lar because he drove quite at the quite middle of the road... But that so called hero just too acting...... PADAM MUKA!!! It's so painful, money wasted for repairing the car... It's so embarrasing as a Tarcian, Malaysian...


So, DON'T EVER TRY TO DO THE SAME THING AS THAT GUY!!!


(p/s: This might be happened for couples of month ago... I know I'm outdated... kekekekk...)

誊清 誊清

上文提到说遇到朋友的女朋友
其实 应该说是前女朋友
原来 他们真的是分手了

我竟然还那样问她
是否是XXX的女朋友
可是她也没表明说她不是啊

当初他告诉我说
他跟他的女朋友分了的时候
我还以为他是开玩笑的
(因为他讲话都喜欢“团团转”的)
没想到 竟然

不过 那是他们的私事
只希望他们能够找到自己的最爱
有情人终成眷属

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

“奇遇记”

今天
一如往常的 我走路出去等巴士

一到巴士站 塔尔的巴士就停在哪儿了

我平时都喜欢坐靠窗边的位子
上了巴士 都快没位子坐了
所以唯有坐在靠窗边位子的隔壁
(!@#$%^&*_+~)[复杂化!]

那辆巴士应该是7:40am的(从学院)
不过 我不知道他几点才会从我这里(云顶阁)出发去学院
我上巴士时 已经是7:50am了
坐我隔壁的那位女生问我巴士几点才会开?
我也就老实的告诉她我不是很清楚

她很紧张的说她八点就要上课了
还说希望巴士快点开车
不久后 巴士就开了
她好像很开心的 谢天谢地了
呵呵

这女生也蛮可爱的
一路上她都一直跟我讲话
毕竟 我们都不认识对方的啊

从我来KL这么久以来
就从来没有遇过像这样的一个人
会跟陌生人谈天的
哈哈

她也是final year学生
不过她是Accounting系的
还谈到了要不要去UK的Top Up Programme耶
哈哈
竟然能够跟陌生人扯到那么远

后来突然想起我有个朋友
也是和她同一个科系的
我借了他Pendrive很久了都还没还给他
(不是我不要还他,是他自己说有见到面才还的)

那 我就想 她那么可爱
应该品格还好吧
就麻烦她帮我把Pendrive还给他

我就先跟她说了他的名字
问她是否认识他时
她先是给了我另外一个人的全名
我说不是 而是XXX

“哦。。。是他。。”

太好了 她认识他
那我就可以托她帮我把Pendrive还给他咯
哈哈

后来 我才问起了她的名字
先是 我还不以为意
然后 我再跟她double confirm她的名字

哦。。。!!!
是XX!!
那 你是XXX的女朋友咯?
(原来她是那Pendrive主人的女朋友!)
呵呵
世界真是小啊!!!

一路以来
每每问起那Pendrive主人关于他女朋友的事时
他都不回应的
就连照片都没看过

其实 曾经在学院有看过他的女朋友的
不过 都没有记得她的样子
所以 早上看到她时也没想到
呵呵

XXX
你的女朋友曝光了啦!!!
不用你的介绍
我已经认识她了!!!
哈哈

后来 她跟我拿了我的MSN和电话号码
然后 她赶时间要上课去了
(到学院时已经是8点了!)
而我和她上课的地方又不一样
所以就各自走各自的

我跟她
竟然在那短短五分钟的路程
就这样认识了
哈哈

Monday, November 17, 2008

谢谢你,辛苦你了

那三天之前
我并不对你的到来那么的期盼
那三天之后
我反而对你的离开是依依不舍

我又重新跌入闷闷的世界
就像是一个人的生活
好孤独 好寂寞 好无助

短短的三天
我竟然不懂得珍惜
还上演了一段不开心的插曲

对不起
我知道 我又让你伤心了
我知道 我又让你心痛了

虽然已经过了
我却还很内疚
我却还很心痛
对你说出了那样的话

我知道 我是个麻烦的女朋友
我知道 我是个野蛮的女朋友
我知道 我是个难搞的女朋友

幸好 是你在我身边
幸好 你都迁就着我
幸好 是你陪伴着我
很庆幸 总有你的存在

再一次的对不起
因为 有很多的功课要完成
所以 都没有办法陪你
因为 明天还有一个考试
所以 连我们的三周年庆祝也泡汤了

总是责怪你
抛下我一个人在这里
事实上
我是该谢谢你的

你让我成长了
你让我学会很多东西了
你让我学会独立了

谢谢你,辛苦你了

Friday, November 14, 2008

Boring blog!! =D

Week 6 just passed... Almost half sem already right now!!! Another 8 weeks left for my life in TARC!!! But all the assignments are on due date sooner and sooner.. I can't breath... Life is just so tiring...

Now, I'm supposed meet with Ney d... Well... something goes wrong again with his car.. But at this time, his car is just okay and on the way to my house(KL).. unfortunately..now is the time for all the OL, OB/OM to get to their home and he's now suffering in traffic jam!! (He went Cheras to look for his friend there for repairing his car) While, I'm suffering here and praying hard to meet up with him as earlier as possible..

For sure I miss him lar... But for another reason is that I got my assignment discussion at 830am tomorrow!! I've not come out with anything yet up to now.. Cause yesterday night was preparing for today's presentation and didn't work for other assignments yet.. and I hope he'll be arriving earlier, so I could have my dinner earlier(my mum and his mum cook something for me..kakaa...) and I can do my assignment mar.. As I am hungry+sleepy right now, I hope to fill up my stomach first and start the assignment.. But...dunno when only will he be back here.. =`(

So, while waiting for him to get back here and I got no mood to do my assignment yet also.. Then just fill up my time and don't waste it for bli bla here..hahaa...

My pocket goes dry soon already lar.. When only the stupiak government change its slow motion behavior ar??!!! Already half sem and left only another half sem..why don't credit our balances yet?? haizz.. Hopefully I can get it by next week..Otherwise I have to makan sendiri d.. haha...

Nothing SPECIAL happen to my life these few days.. dunno what should I update in this blog... =/

Hahaa... just get Ney's call.. He reached d!! hhehee... blog again next time!! hahaa.. Bye!! =)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Good choice?

These two days has been attending to several talks regarding to our choices after graduated our advanced diploma(AD) course...

The 1st one which held on the Monday ago, about Liverpool John Moores University(LJMU), UK summer semester programme. This programme will be started in June, 2009, which after we completed our AD. It is going to complete within 14 weeks and then come back M'sia. This is a top-up programme to get our Honours Degrees. The fees is 3,298pounds... As recently the exchange rate is 1 pound = RM 5.5, converted the fees amount to RM, it is about RM20,000. It's quite cheap and worth to go...(Compared to our seniors time, the exchange rate is 1pound = RM6.++). But, dunno whether this rate would be raised few months later on or not..

The 2nd talk is about taking Master in Napier University(NU), Scotland. This programme is longer than LJMU one's. It takes 1 year+15weeks to complete. 1 year will be at M'sia(it's part-time) and another 15 weeks will be continued in NU. The fees is more expensive than LJMU as well. It is about 5,000pounds.

The 2nd talk, I would not take it for definitely due to the fees is much expensive and I don't think I am able to cope with it as it's Master programme. So now, the LJMU programme is under my consideration...

Almost all my friends are thinking about this programme... But the main reason for us is WE HAVE NO MONEY!!! We need approximately RM30,000 to go for the programme(if the exchange rate doesn't increase much).. There's some loans available for us to borrow la..But then the interest rate is quite high.. and the 2nd reason is we don't know whether we manage to clear all the papers before going to UK or not..

Yesterday I had been talking with my dad.. and I know he wishes me to join the programme.. cause might be easier to get career as we are actually holding UK certificate if we do join the programme!!! But, if the world is still having recession after we back from UK, it's hard to get any career..and we will not be able to repay our loan..

But for me, what I am actually concerned is that I'm stressed when my dad asking me to read some documents for him while I donno what is the document referring to. As I have never touched on any investment stuff, applying for subsidiaries, insurance and so on, how could I answer such question if dad ask me ler? Yet, he say like holding higher certificate must be able to do/know everything!!! HELP ME!!! It doesn't mean so k... I'm stressed! Cause he's just like anger on it!!! I just don't like and pressure!!! If I go for the programme+using his money... I can't imagine what is going to be again if I can't help him for such conditions..!!!

Now, he is wishing me to go.. for sure I want to go also lar!!! Though he's still able to sponsor me to go, I just don't feel like wanna spend his money. Cause all are his 'blood sweat money'... I'd rather asking him to spend his money to go for travelling with mum instead of sponsor me.. Maybe that is the way of how he loves us lar... But just sometimes I can't refrain from his temper..

I think I will go but I will choose to borrow loans to join this programme.. But I will ask for further information about the loans first before I make the decision to go UK... For sure, I must aim myself to pass all my exam during this final sem!!! I must believe I CAN!!! hahaa...



Gambatte Orange!!! ;-)

"Common Sense"

今天才知道原来大家都有同感
哈哈

不了解自己的人
该改一改自己了吧?

不要随便踩上人
不要没大没小的
不要那么情绪化
不要扮可爱
不要小器

要有gentleman点
要大方点
要礼让点

真的是涂上了日晒雨淋也不怕的漆耶!!!

请反省!!!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

自量一点!!!

把自己的生活过得紧迫
不觉得很辛苦吗?
就算你不介意
也不需要拖人下水吧

每个人都有感觉 感受 自尊心
不是随意让你踩上的
没听过同舟共济吗?
为什么还要那么自我?

不要以为自己付出很多
要想想自己做的东西有什么价值
不要乱乱批评人家
事先请你评估一下你自己

现在的人怎么都这么自以为是啊?!
以为自己做得很好
结果 搞得一塌糊涂
潇洒走一回
是内乱?还是谈妥了?或许相反的搞不定了?

Fairness, Transparency, Accountability齐全了吗?
Management都做得不好
还要硬硬逞强
是顽固?是幼稚?

现在被磨得苦一点
将来就会过得容易一点
酱不是很好吗?

迟或早?
有分别吗?
是像新加坡的“kiasu”吗?
不觉得很累吗?

不要什么东西都背上身
是因为得到好的回酬就可以炫耀一番也好
还是要让人家觉得你很勤力也好
你的所作所为不再让人觉得钦佩





请自量一点!!!

尊重别人也等于尊重自己!!!

把自己搞成这样是一件很可悲的事!!!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

A nausea meaLLLLL

What the hell happen to me this whole day!!!

I used to take 2 meals only during weekend, which the 1st meal is actually breakfast+lunch and another meal is dinner for sure liao lo..

Today's 1st meal I go to pack 1 nasi goreng at the mamak stall downstair of my flat...
Well.. when having this nasi goreng.. I suddenly got a feel like it's so dirty :S .. after tis meal, I feel like wanna vomit+dizzy in this whole day till now!!! I tried to eat some biscuits in chocolate flavor, eat some plums, drink 100plus... All these stuffs are my favorites also don't make me feel better... At night, I only drink milo+biscuits.. Yet....... no changes...

I start thinking what's go wrong.. Will it be my gastric problem again? But I don't feel any pain of my stomach... Or I keep on thinking it's dirty and make me feel nausea... OMG!!! I feel very uncomfortable larr!! Argghhh!!!

Or is this mamak stall got some problem actually? Last time I bought nasilemak ayam from this mamak stall.. Also, it caused me feel almost the same.. But this time I feel very much different and uncomfortable!!! Sure, Sure... Sure this is the main reason!!! I swear.. I swear I will never go da bao anything from this mamak stall again!!!

Today is really bad day for me... Didn't do anything else cause of this!!! MY ASSIGNMENT ar!!! I hate it I hate it I hate it!!! Damn damn damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hopefully I will get better by tomorrow..... NO!! should be 'recover'...NO!! MUST RECOVER by tomorrow!! I don't wanna fall into any kind of sick as there're so many assignment gotta complete and it's on due date soon!!! and also... 5 days from now neyney coming again!!! I dont want to show him my sick face and worst thing is... might be 'scolded' by him... =p

Anyway, I will take good care of myself and won't let myself fall into any such circumstances again!! No worries... I'm grew up already... Don't treat me like a little child though I like it.. =p

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Please support me =p

Yeah...
Congratulation to myself!!!
Cause I get to add in 'Add Ads' of Nuffnang which recommended by XC before...

What is this stuff about?
This is a way to earn money...
As long as you are hardworking for blogging for something interesting...
And attracted many visitors...
You can earn even much money...

I rejected her recommendation before...
Cause of I thought I am lazy and won't update my blog so often..
Plus, not much 'friends' come and visit to my blog...

So, what is the purpose I added this stuff into my blog right now?
Because, I 'privatized' my blog before for few friends only...
But now, I'm trying to publicize it...
Hahaa...

Hopefully you all can visit to my blog frequently...
So only I get to earn my first RM50 from Nuffnang sooner...
Hahaa...



p/s : Please support me... =D

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Loneliness is a good thing to try

Again, a place for me to spill out my feeling
Hopefully I could be getting better after this

Try to keep myself into silence mode
Yet, it seems not work for me

I wish to change myself
But, I failed to make it

Since then, I'd prefer to be alone and silent
I'd like to get away from anything

I'm getting even like loneliness
Loneliness is good at the sometimes

Reality make human beings suffer
It doesn't bring happiness

What you did and thought there's a point there
Is actually do not seemed by the others
It makes you feel unhappy

Tiring of thinking all these stuffs
But, I just can't stop myself from thinking of it

If silence is my nature inner
I'd appreciate it so much as I'd learnt so much now

I wish to be alone sometimes
Do not have to take care of anything
Nobody will care what you did
Except the one loves you the most
That could be interesting for me, perhaps




Loneliness ain't a bad thing right???

Loneliness is good to be tried...

Friday, October 31, 2008

庆幸有你!!!

这个部落格好像从一开始就是
每次 有什么不开心的
都回来这里报到 来这里诉诉苦
我想
这里 不该是我的秘密基地了
这里 应该是我的倾诉基地了
哈哈

都是你啦
说走就走
害我有什么事情都找它了
要不然就不会有它了
哼!!!

打从我来到塔尔时
你样样事都帮我做
洗衣 洗厕所 煮菜 丢垃圾 缴水电费 缴电话费
连我上下课都有你的接送(虽然只是你的“老爷”摩托)
现在 每当看到朋友的男朋友来接送她们时
都不禁的让我想起当年的我

不开心时
你就会马上在我身边
陪伴着我 安慰着我
想去那里时
你都会尽你所能带我去
每次吵架时
到最后都是你在迁就我 安抚回我

不过
我知道
到了今时今日
虽然 你不在我身边
但是 你对我的照顾更深了
我知道
你每次放了工都会马上回家
然后睡觉前打个电话给我聊一聊了才去见周公
我知道
你都在尽你的能力
陪着隔了好几百公里的我
或者是来这儿陪我
我知道
你不想要我胡思乱想
好让我在这边可以安心的念书

其实 我觉得很庆幸有你
总觉得你好像都没什么不好的
(除了你的自我脾气外)

做事情总是很有交待的你
是我在我朋友的男朋友当中所最难看到的
每次都让她们很焦虑

为什么你总要那么体贴
总让我觉得
我是一个女生都不比你体贴啦
呵呵

不过
只许你对我这一个女生酱!!!
不然。。。
你就会像。。。。
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像这张照片里的一样!!!
哼!!!
Lalalaa~~~
(不要偷笑!我能够想像得到你的表情哦!!!)


幸福吧?
哈哈。。。

=)

终于来到了星期五!!!
心里有少许的轻松
呵呵。。。

不过 这里周末也不见得可以很得空
Corporate Administration的Assignment
Corporate Financial Management的Assignment
Corporate Governance的Assignment
Case Study的Assignment
通通都要做

想要完成这些Assignment
要读很多东西 要会很多东西酱
尤其是Corporate Financial Management的Assignment
因为没有一个比较优秀的组员
反而有一个“特别有性格”的组员
有少许头痛

她 好像有点讨厌我
我 不知道我何时何日踩到了她的尾巴
她 每次都摆一副臭脸给人
我 不知道要该怎么样和这种人沟通

不再说为什么我会和她同一组了
不过很谢谢倩女会打算和我一起交换组员
虽然最后我还是选择不换了
因为我考虑到了好几个因素
所以只好作罢
谢谢你哦(只是因为我将会时常打扰你了!!!呵呵!!=p)

虽然 CA和CG的Assignment Group都是以抽签的方式来决定自己的组员
不过这两个Assignment的组员我都相当满意
反而CFM这个可以让自己选自己的组员的Assignment
却让我有点头痛 害怕
只得要靠自己的努力
也就当自己先开始被受“训练”了吧
酱才会成长的嘛 对吗?
哈哈



勤力 努力 自信 成熟 集中 积极 独立 进步
快来找橙子吧!!!

哈哈。。。

Thursday, October 23, 2008

好累啊。。。

我好累啊。。。
可以就这样停下来休息吗?

最后一个学期了
也就是最忙的一个学期了

虽然这个学期才刚开始三个星期
感觉很忙 很有压力 很闷闷不乐
想要透透气都不能

今天出了上个学期的成绩
有些科目比我想像的好
有些科目却不如我想像的好
不过 总算是顺利过关了

虽然如此
我并没有像以前那样的因为过关而开心了
没有像以前那样第一时间打电话给老爸报喜过关了
不知道是为了什么?

是因为尼回了吗?
还是因为这个学期越来越忙了?

今天都很不想讲话
想要一个人静静的
没有心情要做任何东西

很想要打从心底痛哭一场
然后所有的事情就会消失
可是 我清楚明白那是一件不可能的事情
我还剩这一个学期了
我也得要忙下去

或许 我的功课不如人家的难
可是 我的学业并不如人家的棒
我需要更多的时间
我需要更加的努力
才能把我的功课做的好些

但是 我感觉越来越有压力
每天放学回到家都是自己一个人孤伶伶
尼又要工作
打给爸也是在给我压力
不能在他面前哭一场

在学院里
我不会那么容易表现出我不开心的样子
因为 我不想要人家问我
就算是有多么的不开心 我也不会告诉他人
我也知道我会很容易的掉下眼泪
我不喜欢被人这样看到
所以我都会选择自己一个人啃

我好想停止下来
我不要这么忙
我不要有这么多的压力

我知道现在只不过是在读书而已
以后踏入社会工作会更加糟糕
但是我真的感觉很不好

我知道你会心疼看到我这样
可是我真的控制不到我自己
我真的很不开心
对不起

我知道你很照顾我
我也知道你很在乎我
我更知道你很担心我

另一边厢
你也要兼顾到你的事业
你在打算着我们的未来了
你也不能太常来找我

可是 我可以再贪心点吗?
我可以得到你更多的关心吗?
我可以得到你更多的安慰吗?
我可以得到你更多的鼓励吗?
谢谢你

希望我们都能顺顺利利
加油 加油!!!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

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不知不觉中又来到了10月19日
----〉我的生日
有什么特别吗?并没有。。

今年的10月19日
感觉不到是我的生日
是因为没有尼在身边吗?
感染不到尼记得我生日的心情
简而言之 不觉得那是我的生日

不过 收到了很多朋友的祝福
Friendster里的也有 SMS里的也有
谢谢你们

这两年的生日
我都收到了同样的‘礼物’
我也不明白为什么会收到这样的‘礼物’

为什么会是这样?
不是说 你怎样对待人家;人家就会同样的对待你吗?
难道这句话是骗人的?
还是 我太天真了?
还是 我看错人了?
还是 我做错了什么而得到的报应?

一次又一次的让我睡不好
以为从那次跌进谷里 慢慢爬起身了
才不过是刚刚建立几个月
又让我再一次的跌进谷里

算了吧
我已经对这一个东西很灰心了
我已经很受伤了
我不想再相信它了

谢谢尼
知道我过得不怎么好
你特地请假来这里陪我
这是你给我最好的礼物
嘻嘻

对不起
我知道我不该这样
总是长不大的感觉
总是让你担心又担心
总是让你睡不着

知道已经答应你很多次
我会努力的照顾自己
我会努力的再努力

这次 我会知道要该怎么做了
我会更加加油了
谢谢尼

期待你明天到来。。。=)
一路上要小心哦
今晚早点睡。。。

Friday, October 17, 2008

为什么???

为什么总是一次又一次的伤害我???
为什么总是发生在我身上???
难道我就是那么不幸的吗???

好难受 好伤心。。。
是我用心太深吗???
还是我太照顾人???

或许。。。
我该狠心点???
我该自私点???
还是我不该计较那么多???

可是。。。
我做得到吗???
我的心会那么坚硬吗???

可靠性越来越低了。。。
信任感也不见了。。。

依赖性要降低了。。。
信心要提高了。。。
努力要加油了。。。

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I've Not Changed!!!

Have I changed?

You might feel that I've changed...
But I don't think I am changed...

Before you feel so, please ask yourself
Have you treated me good??
Have you been kind to me??
Have you treated me sincerely in your deep heart??

To me
My answer is NO!!!
You have never!!!

Don't think I am 3 years old child
Don't think I don't know what you had did behind me
Don't think I am stupid!!!

I don't feel like wanna talk to you
Because what you did made me feel very uncomfortable
I feel shame of you

Please don't judge on people from the outer
Please don't keep on feel shameless
Please don't only maximized your own desired while ignore others'
Please don't treat us like your maid that we need to listen to your decision

Please be matured
Please be considerable
Please be honest
Please be sincere
Please be thoughtful before you take an action
Please respect others always

Every time I see the consequence that you made
I feel so angry
I feel so sad
I feel so hurt
I feel how bad that you are
I feel how selfish that you are

Now
I decided not to treat you so good
I decided not to be so closed with you
I decided to be far away from you
I decided to talk lesser to you as long as I could

This is because of
HOW IS THE WAY YOU TREAT ME, THAT'S THE WAY I TREAT YOU!!!

So, if you want to feel that I've not changed actually
Then you should take the initiative to treat me better
But, I don't think you would get my message also
Hahaa...
You won't change the way that you treat me also even you get my message, maybe
Hahaa...

And also
PLEASE RESPECT OTHERS IF YOU WANT OTHERS TO RESPECT YOU!!!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

早来的生日庆生!!!

唉。。。
我们期待的见面 已经见到了
可是 又那么快地 又要分离了

虽然 还是那么的依依不舍
但是 比起以前已经好很多了
毕竟 以前的我跑回来这里就会放声的大哭

相反的。。。
你好像比我还更加的不舍得分开
对不起。。没办法再陪你了。。。
就期待明年。。你会不会为了我们而在同一个地方工作呢??

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德,尼和我在车上要回家了。。

尼& 德在谈天。。。

尼:你有没有去Pulau Langkawi 啊?或者你的朋友有没有去Pulau Langkawi?
德:还不清楚。。我正在考虑着。。朋友啊。。帮你问问看。。
尼:那就谢谢你咯。。
德:不用客气啦。。我们这么熟了。。!!!
尼:呵呵。。我很喜欢吃chocolate的。。买多一点。。反正那么便宜。。
德:好的。。没问题!!!
尼:她(手指着坐后座的我),今年22岁。。
(我也莫名其妙干嘛突然扯到我身上,但是我没有加以多问。。)
德:哈?她小我们一岁啊?
尼:是啊。。
。。。
。。。
。。。
(要到达目的地时。。。)
尼:你要跟我们去Tesco吗?
德:不了。。我还要去买东西。。
尼:酱啊。。okay咯。。我们等下再见。。
(我们还约了另外一个朋友晚点一起去Ulu Langat用餐。。)
德:等下见。。
(我跟尼就自己回家了。。)

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Ring Ring... Ring Ring...
(德打电话给尼)
尼:哈喽。。
德:和(另一个朋友的名)突然有事不能跟我们一起去吃。。
尼:酱啊。。那怎样?
德:我们自己去咯。。
尼:那好吧。。我们等下见。。你载我们去啊。。
德:Ok。。

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接着 我和尼就到了某个地方找德一起上Ulu Langat。。。

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到了目的地。。。
(好冷啊。。。我可是第一次来到那里的哦。。听说可以看到吉隆坡的风景,很美)

德去他的车厢拿出一包东西交给尼
(原来德说有东西要买就是去买我的生日蛋糕)
尼接着就交给我 说道“生日快乐!”
我当场给吓着了!!当然也很开心啊!!
因为真的很惊喜啊!!(虽然只是一个小蛋糕)

数来数去。。。
你给过我的所谓‘surprise'。。。
应该只有这一次的最成功吧??
哈哈。。。
(不要又说我的要求很高!!=P)

谢谢你
特地跑来KL为我提早庆祝生日
(谁叫我的生日是在星期日啊。。!!!)

只是很可惜 没有和你拍到什么照片
因为美美的位子全都被人占据了。。

这一张就是我们在Ulu Langat的Restaurant Gasonline拍的照片


Restaurant Gasonline 也叫加油站
所以 尼尼
吃了这一餐 我们也要一起加油


祝我 :学业加油!!!
祝尼 :事业加油!!!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

No topic

It has been quite a long time I have never updated my blog... Hehee...

Now is the 2nd week of my holidays..which also means the last week of my holidays... This coming Sunday I have to go out KL again..sob sob...=(

I got to leave my family and also my NeyNey again...haizz...
We got to meet only 2 times.. Sorry for can't accompany You... And I also understand that You have to work.. But, it's okay.. Never mind... Left only half year... We might be come back to each other again.. Hehee... We must gambatte oo!!! Dun worry me.. I'll take very good care of myself... You too oo!!!

Before this holidays.. My plan was going to S'pore... But this plan spoilt lastly.. Cause of my sis is not free to bring me out.. Plus, I realised that my loan is not really enough to cover all my final sem expenses if I go S'pore.. I dun want to ask my dad to pay me all my expenses.. I feel so hard if I ask him to bank in to me.. He is old already.. While my elder sis is still...... haizz...

I'm so envy that others' siblings can always gather together and yamcha and chitchat happily.. How come my siblings are different??? Others' sisters always bring them for travelling or buy them gifts.. Why isn't my sisters?? Always saying that she is busying for working and this and that... Has never called me or concern me since I study in college.. Even when she is signing in MSN also never say 'hi'... Haizz.. Sad and disappointed to have such sister...

Nothing to do at home during this holidays... Only watch the TVB drama which I had downloaded during exam periods..and online sometimes..But was lazy to update my blog...hahaha... Dun worry la Ney.. I do miss you la.. haha... But you have never visit to my blog for long time also right??? ahahahaa...

By the way.. I hope that you dun blame me that I can't go to find you.. The main reason is that I got no transport..should say..nobody can fetch me to Lumut Jetty..and you also know my family la.. I'm so sorry about that... And also... I'm really thankyou very much for always understand and accomodate me... Thank you very much.. =D

Friday, September 5, 2008

矛盾!!!

好久没来这里报到了。。。
因为现在在忙着Final Exam。。。

才刚考完一科。。。
还有三科。。。
还要等到十九号才能考完。。。
好像还有很久似的。。。

心情好像不在。。。
很想要努力的去明白 去记熟它。。。
但是却一直做不到。。。

心情好像一直在等待十九号的过去。。。
很想要它快快来。。。
但是却还不想那么早回家。。。

可是 还是很矛盾。。。
因为 好像有很想早点回家。。。
我常在想像。。。
我们在自己家乡约会的时候。。。
会是怎么样的呢???
会不会是和我想像的一样呢???
不知道 你是否也有在想像呢???
嘻嘻。。。

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Please Don't Treat Us Like A Ball !!!

If you wanted others to treat you better
Then you should take the initiative to treat others better

If you have already got your own decision in your heart
Then please don't propose the suggestion to others

Yesterday
This matter has, again, arose
The matter was arising cause of your very initial action took against to

Now
Please don't, again make a decision, which in your mind, is reasonable
But, has never think of others'
I had already told you clearly about my mind
I would never follow your decision

We are not your anything
Please don't treat us like a BALL
The reason is the same as you said
"Looking for their helps only if you got problem"
It is the same as
When you need us, we have to be available for you to play
When you don't need us, we are nothing to you and throw us away

Since you said
"Why don't we proposed this matter to the others since we got different decision"
I knew that you wish to be worked together with them
If so, what's for you asked me?
Is it if I say okay then you'll go on your decision without asking them?
But, why don't you ask them directly as well instead of asking me first?

You said
"If you didn't ask them, you'll feel like you're the MAJOR SHAREHOLDER"
I was wondering
I was so wondering how come you would feel so?
I thought you are always behave like that and that's not a big deal?

1 year ago
You are the First one to grab those are UTILIZABLE to you
You are the One throw them away first

1 year after
You are the One feel 'guilty' to them
You are the One wanna get them back?
Sounds so funny

Actually
The reason I don't want to be worked together with them
Is because of I know too much about their behavior
I know that I might be BULLY by them
You and her, she and she, while I'm alone
Who is going to help me?

You all are of the same type of persons
So you all got the same topics
But, I am clearly know that I'm none of yours
I feel not happy to be with you all

1 matter you had again arised
He is not gentleman
Yup, I know
But I think he is better than what you had did towards me!
"Proposed one thing, Did another thing"!
I don't even wanna mention about this again
Yet, you raised it
Have you ever think that's might be your Fault?

Today
Something has been happened
It seems you still not notice about your problem

Ya
I knew that you gals are always having meals together
And you feel like if you still don't want to join them as a group
Feel like so funny and very weird

Okay
If so, I'm always joining the other gang of friend for meals also
Then, is it meant I have to join them for group assignment as well?
Honestly, I'm wishing so much if I could
I feel comfort to be with them
I feel I am who I am when joining them
But, I can't do anything


I am not trying to say how terrible you are
But at least, I wanted to let you know how I'm feeling(even though you dunno I got this blog)
Just try to consider of others' thinking and feeling


PLEASE DON'T EVER TREAT US LIKE A BALL!!!

Monday, August 4, 2008

Relax =)

Hooray!!!!~~~~

Finish my tax assignment finally... huh....
This assignment had really grabbed us a lot of times... Few days ago, all of my group members gathered together to discuss and do on it for almost 12 hours... It means half day!!!!! Sounds we're so pity right...?? But, that's the truth as we are all blurring in taxation!!! Definitely make us slow down our works!!! Today, we finished it already... Hahaa... But, tiring lo..... =(

Even though this tax assignment had already killed us, I found that it's interesting and happy when spent the time to do it with my group members...
During previous assignments, they din put effort on it(as I saw)... But this time, they are much more serious already!!! *happy =)

They did their parts and keep on searching for the related informations... I saw their hardworking and efforts in this assignment!!!!! That's the group members I like!!! *wink ;)
But I was thinking... Is that the more difficult the assignment is, the more effort they put in?? hahaa.. Not to think so much la right now... I just hope that they will keep on this spirit until the next sem as well!!! heheee...

Ok Ok... Come back, come back Orange... You still got an oral to go in next week... Don't try to relax yourself so much!!! I hate to be asking question by lecturer, tutor or whatever situation in which I need to answer question in front of public!!!! As my english language is not good at all...I'm even worried about it!!! I'm even even nervous about it!!! I'm even even even scared of it!!! T_T

Anyway... I'll get myself relax for today and starting to study MCSP on tomorrow...(Hopefully I can make it...=p)

Orange....Gambatte Kudasai!!!!!


Sunday, August 3, 2008

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Friday, August 1, 2008

不要给自己烦恼,好吗?加油!

还记得Gambateh Kudasai的那一篇吗?

“如果你不给自己烦恼。。。
别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。。。
因为你自己的内心,你放不下。。。”

我知道你常常要为了这,为了那而烦。。。
可是一步一步来好吗???

一个人。。。
不可能可以在一个时间内做完好几件事。。。
除非你是万能的!!!

从另外一个角度想。。。
或许你现在要做的东西很多。。。
你没有时间休息,做你想要的东西。。。
可是,你时常都说啊。。。
“你所付出的,就将会有回报”
现在或许需要辛苦点。。。
可能,将来就会幸福点啊!!!

打从我们出世的那一天开始。。。
我们就得面对这一些日子。。。
这就是所谓的人生吧。。。???

如果你现在没有办法面对你现在的问题。。。
那,以后呢?未来呢?
你所面对的问题。。。
或许就是老天爷给予你的挑战。。。
好让你更成长,更成熟!!!

还有,你回答我的‘人生之苦’吗???

“人生会苦是你给不到他人的快乐。。。
而你感到世上的痛苦。。。

烦恼。。。
是因为你没有寻找到真正的快乐。。。
忘不了你的仇恨。。。
加上想要的比需要来得多。。。
才会产生烦恼。。。”

那,我再多奉劝你。。。

“不要为明天忧虑。。。
因为明天自有明天的忧虑。。。
一天的难处一天当就够了。。。”

不要忘记。。。
你还有我啊!!!
虽然没办法在你身边。。。
但我会给你精神上的支持!!!

要加油哦!!!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

I'm Stressed Out!!!

I'm Stressed out!!!!!!!!!!

What a stupid Advanced Taxation la!!! Assignment Assignment!!! Teaching us by such a GREAT way....Yet, still giving us such a great assignment!!! Know what's gonna to do.... But, still strucking there.... Haizz.... Can I throw it away ar!!!!DREAMING la!!!

I know that You wish to help me to do my assignment also... But, You really dunno la... Coz You have never touched on such thing....Thanks a lot... If the assignment is required a very very common sense stuff... I'll throw it to You definitely!!! Hahaaa...(How bad was I...=p)

After completing this stupid assignment... I gonna start study MCSP d.... Coz the week after this, there'll be an oral on MCSP... Says, it's a role play firstly... Now...?? Come out with an oral!!!! Damn it!!!

What a stupid course I had chosen 3 years ago????Sigh....

Orange, just let it be.... left oni 1 sem + 4 weeks.... Gambatte!!!


Wondering....
Wondering whether wanna go back next weekend???
If so, I might need to skip MCSP tutorial again!!! Sigh... But, go back also nth to do right???
I think You got to working also... I'm boring if I stay over your place...

You know also, I have to be re-adapted myself once I have to be coming back KL alone...
You know or not... Few days ago when You wanna go back Sitiawan... I have tried very hard to be tough and nvr let my tears drop... I succeed!!! I had made it!!! But, I still can't wait to see you again... This is my weakness, I know...

I know You prefer me to write in Chinese, but today, I dun want...
I wanna You to learn more English... I know You have get yourself to improve your English quite well... Keep it On!!! Dun give up...
But, I preferred a Chinese comment if You do!!!(That's Bad Me!!! hahahaa...)
Cause, your Chinese comment is always meaningful to Me!!! heeheee...

Ok lar, gonna do the STUPID assignment again d... haizz... =`(




Sunday, July 27, 2008

短暂的快乐

为什么快乐时光总是那么快就过了呢???

我自认。。。
我是一个很贪心的人。。。

星期二,三,五,六,日。。。
听起来有五天。。。

但是。。。
算起来。。。
才有四天。。。
你才是陪伴着我的。。。

尼。。。
我还嫌不够!!!!!!!!!!
我还不知足!!!!!!!!!!

尼。。。
我喜欢有你陪伴的感觉。。。
我喜欢依偎着你的感觉。。。

因为。。。
躺在你心胸 会感受到你的气息。。。
躺在你身边 会有你独特的味道。。。

虽然。。。
分分开开了很多次。。。
但是。。。
我还是习惯不了。。。

你对我的疼爱总是有增无减。。。
每当看到我身上的瘀青。。。
你总是一脸心疼地看着我。。。
你总担心我被人欺负。。。
你总爱一直呵护着我。。。

你给予我的一切。。。
我很感激。。。
我也很喜欢。。。

谢谢你。。。

这几天只是依赖在你身旁。。。
没有去看任何书。。。
因为难得我们见面啊。。。

今天你回家去了。。。
我知道我也要开始忙我的学业了。。。

知道了啦。。。
答应你的嘛。。。
要专心读书嘛!!!

答应我。。。
你也要好好照顾自己。。。!!!

得空再来找我吧。。。
哈哈。。。

Monday, July 21, 2008

GamBaTeh KuDaSai!!!

人之所以痛苦。。。
在于追求错误的东西。。。

如果你不给自己烦恼。。。
别人也永远不可能给你烦恼。。。
因为你自己的内心,你放不下。。。

好好的管教你自己,不要管别人。。。
你随时要认命,因为你是人。。。

这个世界本来就是痛苦的,没有例外的。。。
你什么时候放下,什么时候就没有烦恼。。。

每一种创伤,都是一种成熟。。。

当你烦恼的时候。。。
你就要告诉你自己。。。
这一切都是假的。。。
你烦恼什么?

根本不必回头去看咒骂你的人是谁。。。
如果有一条疯狗咬你一口。。。
难道你也要趴下去反咬他一口吗?

忌妒别人。。。
不会给自己增加任何的好处。。。
忌妒别人。。。
也不可能减少别人的成就。。。。

永远不要浪费你的一分一秒。。。
去想任何你不喜欢的人。。。

得不到的东西。。。
我们会一直以为他是美好的。。。
那是因为你对他了解太少。。。
没有时间与他相处在一起。。。
当有一天。。。
你深入了解后。。。
你会发现原来。。。
不是你想像中的那么美好。。。

这个世间只有圆滑,没有圆满的。

不要刻意去猜测他人的想法。。。
如果你没有智慧与经验的正确判断。。。
通常都会有错误的。。。

你要感谢告诉你缺点的人。。。

时间总会过去的。。。
让时间流走你的烦恼吧!

不要因为小小的争执。。。
远离了你至亲的好友。。。
也不要因为小小的怨恨。。。
忘记了别人的大恩。。。

感谢上苍给予我所拥有的。。。
感谢上苍我所没有的。。。

当你手中抓住一件东西不放时。。。
你只能拥有这件东西。。。
如果你肯放手。。。
你就有机会选择别的。。。

人的心若死执自己的观念。。。
不肯放下。。。
那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已。。。

如果。。。
你能够平平安安的渡过一天。。。
那就是一种福气了。。。

多少人在今天已经见不到明天的太阳;
多少人在今天已经成了残废;
多少人在今天已经失去了自由;
多少人在今天已经家破人亡。。。。

恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中。。。
不管他有多坏,有多恶。。。
你愈骂他,你的心就被污染了。。。
你要想,他就是你的善知识。。。

你不要常常觉得自己很委屈。。。
你应该要想。。。
他对我这样已经很好了。。。
这就是修行的功夫。。。

世界原本就不是属于你。。。
因此你用不着抛弃。。。
要抛弃的是一切的执著。。。
万物皆为我所用,但非我所属。。。

学会用理解的。。。
欣赏的眼光去看对方。。。
而不是以自以为是的关心去管对方。。。

成熟的人不问过去;
聪明的人不问现在;
豁达的人不问未来。。。

发光并非太阳的专利;你也可以发光。。。

你可以用爱,得到全世界。。。
你也可以用恨,失去全世界。。。

爱的力量。。。
大到可以使人忘记一切;
却又小到连一粒嫉妒的沙石也不能容纳。。。。

人总是珍惜未得到的。。。
而遗忘了所拥有的。。。


橙子啊橙子。。。

你明明就明白这些道理的嘛。。。
为什么却又做不到???


橙子啊橙子。。。

只能奉劝你一句。。。
加油吧!!!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

终于。。。!!!

我昨天写的部落格很好笑咩???

尼。。。
为什么你会觉得好笑呢???

我看来看去。。。
都不觉得的???
:?

MCSP Assignment从今天早上开始做了。。。
好累人。。。

不过。。。

终于。。。。!!!

现在都分配得七七八八了。。。
哈哈。。。
明天再来个Last Meeting。。。
那就会完成了!!!
真是太好了!!!
(如果你们在每次的Discussion都那么配合,那该有多好。。。)

大伙儿!!!
你们去‘Pou’。。。
我没得去。。。
但是我的Assignment要做完了咯!!!
哈哈。。。

没去有没去的好。。。
哈哈。。。
=P

不过。。。
相信你们玩得很开心吧???
嘻嘻。。。

好期待。。。
好期待来临的星期二。。。

不是因为有Presentation!!!
我是超讨厌Presentation的!!!

可是想到Presentation完了以后就可以见到尼。。。
真的是很兴奋。。。
嘻嘻。。。
我好想你哟。。。

尼。。。
相信。。。
这个星期三可以跟你一起回吧。。。
你可开心了吧。。。???
哈哈。。。

可是。。。
为什么呢???

我又不是陪你回你的家喔。。。
为何你还能那么开心呢。。。???

Friday, July 18, 2008

考试。。。终于过去了。。。

考试。。。
终于过去了!!!

考完试。。。
整个人都轻松了许多。。。

接下来。。。
忙的是头痛的Assignment+Presentation了。。。

明天。。。
大伙儿去‘Pou’。。。
却独留我一人还要和我不想要的人一起赶完Assignment。。。
唉。。。

不过。。。
从另一方面想。。。
如果可以赶完的话。。。
我就能回Sitiawan了。。。
嘻嘻。。。

希望明天一帆顺利。。。!!!
加油加油!!!

尼。。。
我好想下个星期能够跟你一起回去。。。
我好想航航和韦勋!!!
很久没看到他们了。。。
好想抱抱他们。。。
嘻嘻。。。

好高兴。。。
下个星期终于可以看到你了!!!
好期待你将会怎样安排我们的行程。。。
哈哈。。。

不好意思哦。。。
不管是我去你哪儿也好。。。
是你来这儿也好。。。
都要野蛮的要你为我安排我们的节目。。。
哈哈。。。

因为我是幸运的。。。
而你。。。
确是不幸运的。。。

谁叫你看上我啊???
哈哈。。。

=p

无助的埋怨。。。

刚刚看了朋友的部落格。。。
知道他很气(虽然是昨天发生的事)。。。

但是你很幸运(你自己争取到的)。。。
我可是那个不幸运的。。
唉。。。

平时不要来上课就算了。。。
可是为什么他们都不要马上在自己没来上课的那天或是第二天就跟人家先借来抄呢???!!!
为什么非要等到考试的前一天才要来抄答案不可!!!

真是不明白!!!

要求 换组+增加人数 不果。。。
也明白那原因。。。
说出要求。。。
只是想碰碰运气。。。

有人跟我说。。。
反正只剩下那两个assignment罢了嘛。。。
就索性忍耐吧。。。

可是。。。
不只是这两个咧。。。
还有下个学期啊!!!
我不敢想象那会是怎样的。。。

真的很后悔当初的剪刀,石头,布!!!

可是。。。
其实也没想到他们会变得那么懒惰。。。
一句“改一改另一个人的作品就可以了。。。”
为什么可以懒成这样???

What have you contributed to the assignment???

明明就是Group Assignment嘛。。。
怎么可以这样呢???

下个学期。。。
真的好想另外form一个group。。。
可是。。。
我还能够找谁???
谁能帮我???
好无助啊。。。。。。

尼。。。
我不是不想靠我自己。。。
可是。。。
我的能力有限啊!!!

上个学期。。。
你们怎样对待我。。。
我都没有跟你们算帐!!!
你们居然还当作没一回事儿的。。。
我不会忘记的。。。

毕业后。。。
我只会当作你们只不过是在我生命中一小小,很小很小的部分而已。。。

对不起。。。
对着你们这样的朋友。。。
不。。。
既然你们都不当我是朋友似的。。。
我也不例外。。。

对着你们这样虚情假意的人。。。
我也无法对你们好。。。
我只会对你们这种人有着仇怨。。。

我更知道的是。。。
抱着包袱过日子。。。
是很不好受的。。。

尼。。。
放心。。。
我只是会对他们这样而已。。。
很快就会毕业啊!!!
哈哈。。。

加油吧!!!
我真心的朋友们!!!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

人生之苦

有人问我:

“人生真苦。。。

人生之苦。。。
为何人生。。。???

只因人生。。。
历经痛苦。。。

人生因此而受尽波折, 受尽烦恼。。。

难道人生就不能没有烦恼吗。。。???

这有谁能回答呢。。。???”


有人回答我:

“人生会苦是你给不到他人的快乐。。。
而你感到世上的痛苦。。。

烦恼。。。
是因为你没有寻找到真正的快乐。。。
忘不了你的仇恨。。。
加上想要的比需要来得多。。。
才会产生烦恼。。。”


不要为明天忧虑。。。
因为明天自有明天的忧虑。。。
一天的难处一天当就够了。。。


好想。。。
就这样。。。
躺在一片大草场上。。。
感受大自然吹来的风。。。

何时才能拥有???


Sunday, July 13, 2008

好有意思





吳淡如說:「年輕的時候真的因為買錯東西,交過很多學費

但是到了現在,我已經能夠認識自己、了解自己
知道什麼東西適合自己,所以在下決定的時候就會很清楚、很確定」





吳淡如說:我真的覺得,女人尋找適合的男人

就像是尋找一雙適合的鞋子
在年輕的時候,女人買的往往是最華麗

最能墊高自己高度的鞋子
或許是高跟鞋、或許是恨天高

即使難穿也沒關係

因為妳覺得妳自己
可以忍耐



但是,如果有一天

妳忍耐到拇指外翻、腳起水泡
妳才會發現,鞋子最重要的功能

其實是要陪妳走路而已
而走路是要往前走的,不是要站在原地的


婚姻就像找鞋標準一直在變
所以,這時候妳就會去找一雙很舒適的

會保護妳的腳的、會陪著妳一起向前走的鞋

而不是去增加你的高度,因為妳就是這個樣子

吳淡如說:「但是這其中也有一個前提就是妳也不能找太醜的鞋

因為如果太醜妳就不會喜歡它」
婚姻其實就像每個人在找鞋而已


我發現自己從很年輕的時候到現在

找鞋的人格一直慢慢地在改變
因為你已經慢慢接受自己原本的高度

不需要靠鞋子來墊高自己了
不過,雖然這個道理聽起來很簡單似乎人人都可以領會

但是,吳淡如也坦承
要充分參悟其中的道理,其實不是那麼容易



吳淡如以自己為例,和男朋友Simon

其實在民國八十二年就認識,原先只是朋友

直到最近這一、兩年兩個人才有比較深入的來往
那種感覺就像古代的文藝小說中所說的『過盡千帆皆不是』

你(妳)會突然發現好女人(男人)還是在你(妳)的身邊

他(她)也許不是最漂亮的鞋,而是一雙很舒服、能走長久的鞋~


吳淡如說:「我男朋友對我的所有態度

永遠是:『我可以為妳做什麼?』

我後來才覺得

原來這才是人間最稀罕的一種品質」


我真的是後來才發現

像這種從台北載妳到高雄

都叫做『順路』的人

而且他自己有他自己的工作原則、價值觀、人生觀

他不會嫉妒妳的成就,也不會嫉妒妳賺的錢

願意對妳的一切樂觀其成
對任何妳想做的各種實驗,永遠都不加置諱
因為那不關他的事,這是妳自己的選擇

老實跟你說,這樣的人還真少


正如吳淡如在最近一篇文章中所說的:


「沒有一種幸福的背後不站著一個曾經咬緊牙根的堅定靈魂」

吳淡如如今對生活和人生的了悟

其實也經過一番寒風徹骨

從來沒有在人前掉過一滴眼淚的吳淡如
在看到弟弟的字跡那一剎那,還是當場哭了起來
弟弟的離開對我的人生,其實影響很大
即使是我後來跑去奧修社區
在做一些 meditation(冥想)的時候,都還是會放聲大哭
表示你的那種悲傷的能量還是在漸漸釋放之中
弟弟的離開,第一當然是讓我體會到人生無常
第二是讓我了解,人生的快樂和不快樂

真的是掌握在自己手中

跟你原先擁有的資質完全無關


我開始看見人有無限可能,
我不是只能做這些事情」
「就是我一定要把人生過得加倍精采該玩的一定替你去玩;

該看的花該看的動物,都幫你去看;該償還的,我也幫你償還
耳邊響起的也正是吳淡如的那句話:


『過盡千帆皆不是』

你(妳)會突然發現好女人(男人)還是在你(妳)的身邊

他(她)也許不是最漂亮的鞋,而是一雙很舒服、能走長久的鞋~





祝福大家都能找到一雙適合自己
.很舒服.能走長久的鞋.
若是鞋子已經穿在腳上
.可能不太舒服.也不太好走...
我的想法是
...
不妨多忍讓一下
.多協調一下.試著走一段時間....
經過磨合
.調整....穿起來自然會舒服些..

如果
...不能舒服些...嘿嘿....要踢掉.要換鞋.要光腳...由你決定囉!